anta's confession

A 2008 its over but I still reminds every moments that I’ve been throught .It was weird n crazy.I know that I made a lot of mistake in 2008 n I so regreting about it.I was try to make everything with my own way not with God’s way so I am fault.I realized that I was lost n crazy.I made wrong decision in my education life’s .I am glad in Usahid now but that processs that I’ve been throught is was wrong.I used to think to studying abroad but in deep in my heart I juz wanna studying abroad juz because angel is studied abroad too not because I really want to studying abroad.I am so sorry about this to angel n my parent.I never want made them confussed about my education.I know that angel n my parent juz want me to get the best education.But I’m to selfish n stupied,I never though what they want to me it best thing for me !!!

My relationship with God its like rollercoaster,its up n down !!for a few month I never pray n not goin to church !i felt empty n guilty.God giving a lot of blessing for my family but I never thanksful for the blessing.I was enjoying every blessing that God gave to me but what I’m doing for God ? its nothing !!!
But in october I realized that I can go to college,I can buy anything that I want it juz because of God and from that I started to do pray n going to church .
But suddenly it stuck for a few week because my father is quit from he’s job.I was woriied about it,I forgot to pray and honestly I little disappointed with that situation.i cant used my debet card when I wanna using it.I must be careful to using money.And I don like it.
But I realized that I was wrong and I asking for forgiveness to God and I stand up again in God,hope I’ll hv a close relationship with God more and more.

I have a lot of vision in this year and I pray for my vision so my vision can be happen with God’s way.I juz pray and pray for my vision in this year.I started this year with a lot of happiness even my grandma in hospital but I know that God will give her a miracle.
I hope this year will be a great year for my family and specially for my self.I wanna be girl of God who loves God with a great ability to make a breakthrough in my life.
I’ll loving God more and more.I’ll be mature in this year to making my parent proud on me !!
And I still hv a big dreams for my future !!
I will making God and my family happy because my life !!
I proud to be a ANITA PREICILA SIAHAAN !!!!!

ari kaya org gak punya arah

hari ini gaknya aneh wat gw,,gw cm dirmh ja tanpa aktivitas,cma makan,chatting,nulis blog pokoknya semua hal yg rasa'a gak penting dilakuin gw lakuin,tau napah tapi its not good jah,pen jala-jalan tapi malas,pen belanja tp baru ja belanja baju ma muthi,huft,,malas bgt pokoknyagak enak,,udah gtu ngeliat hantu cwe itu online lage,,aduh tambah bete jah,pennya ngumpul brg tmn2 sma tp auk pada kemana,rasnya gw cm punya mama,papa,angie n eren ja tnpa tmn or pacar,,
God please help me ,,
i

am tired w/ my life

wat am fellin' now..
am tired w/ my activies , my friends , my self..
want 2 move n let it go ,,
making a new reason to doin' all this things,,
somestimes i feel am alone,,no friend,,no family just only me in my own world
i should make my self being a new person so i get happiness in my life..
am tryin' to doing the best but until now its not work,,
my so bored,,i need someone who makes my life being more cheerful
i need a change 4 next year,,being a uniq person and being a smart women
its not easy but i must trying it,,
i hope there a different life in mw world.

Saat smw orang pergi

Saat smw orang sedang merrncana utk pergi dari kampus,gw cm bs mikir dan mikir sambil sms palent..
rasa agak aneh kn mungkin gw bakal kehilngan beberapa tmn kampus gw...
gw berusaha utk biasa ja tp ternyata gak bs gw tetep terganggu dgn itu smw,,
klo gw gk punya rasa tanggung jawab ato rasa hormat ma ortu gw ,,gw bakal pergi jg kaya mereka tp kan gak bs segampang itu,,
gw yg mutusin itu swm jd gw jg yg harz bertanggung jawab ma smw kputusan yang udah gw ambl..
belajar utk mengucap syukur atas apa yg telah Tuhan kasih ke gw ..
gw bs terus berdiri dan menemukan diri gw disini jga belajar banyak mengenai tanggung jawab dari smw keputusan yg telah gw ambil,,

enjoying sunday

today i just stay at home,,doing many homework..cooking and browsing i-net..

am always try to moved on n being better person until i get the best in me..
trying to understand people around me ,,making them happy n feel comfort..

am still looking my prince charming..
and i need to learn more about what is life !!!

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<:AtomicElement>nulis blog ne sebenenya lage capek bgt bis ru pulg kampus stlh seharian kul.badan rasa'a remuk..pen tidur..\
<:AtomicElement>gak kuatlah...\
<:AtomicElement>tp senenk krn udah ke lewat jg hari ini !!!!
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<:AtomicElement>thx God